O God, I feel like a hypocrite.
Many would say I am if they knew what I think
and what I believe—or rather, don’t.
Everyone else seems sure of what they believe.
But when I try to say the creeds or sing the hymns,
some of the phrases stick in my throat.
I can’t bring myself to speak words that I don’t believe
When others say comforting things about trusting you,
knowing you are in charge,
and believing that everything is in your care,
I can’t join them in their confidence.
I’m just too cynical. Or maybe too wounded.
Whatever it is, I feel separated from those around me
by my questions and my doubts.
About the only thing I can say I believe for sure today
is that, as the Bible says, you are love.
O God, help me to believe that I can entrust myself,
even with all my doubts,
to your unwavering, unending love. Amen.
—Mary Lou Redding, Prayers for Life’s Ordinary and Extraordinary Moments (Upper Room Books, 2012)
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Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not rely on your own insight.
—Proverbs 3:5 (NRSV)
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